Scene: Three friends, X, Y and Z, meet to have a
couple of drinks at Y’s place. It is late evening, and they intend to relax and
unwind after a long day at work.
I
“I think there is no problem so great that it cannot be solved by
controlling the mind,” said X, who was usually turned inward.
“I think there is no problem that cannot be solved by controlling the
things around you,” said Y, who was usually turned outward.
Z remained silent and enjoyed his drink. He rarely had any comments on
anything. He was turned neither inward nor outward.
“Ah, that’s where you are mistaken, my friend,” said X, addressing Y.
“Life is nothing but spirit. Leave it to the highest in man and let him follow
that highest, as shown by the teachers, by the various philosophical systems.
Let him become more religious, let him follow the great leaders, let him have
discipline, enter spiritual organizations and obey spiritual authority, and be
guided through fear, and he will eventually conquer circumstances and
environment.”
“I don’t quite agree with you, my boy,” said Y, reacting instantly. “My
belief is that thought can be changed—altered, controlled—through organization,
whether of work or of the means of production and distribution, and so forth.
Man is like clay, conditioned by environment, and so by the controlling of that
environment and in the perfecting of the group, the individual will have an
opportunity to express himself. That is, he will no longer be anti-social,
because being mere clay to be conditioned, his environment can be controlled and
so his ambitions, his outlook, and his desires will never be opposed to the
group and be anti-social. Man then will be conditioned according to a new set
of ideas and theories so that he can never, as an individual, come into conflict
with the group or with society. What do you think, Z?” he asked, looking for
confirmation as usual.
“I don’t understand why you guys are discussing all this,” said Z,
looking at his drink. Anyway, let me think! I guess both of you are
exaggerating. I don’t think anybody even cares about all this.”
II
The evening passed by and their drinking continued, and each seemed to
lose some of the superficial controls that their minds had been able to exercise
thus far. X became more and more verbal. Y started smiling more mechanically,
which seemed to indicate that mentally he had just reacted to some idea that
made him feel comfortable and was presently deriving pleasure from it. Z’s face
and body seemed to be hanging downward, as if his senses could hardly perceive
sound or vision.
“I always keep thinking, because I firmly believe that thinking can
solve any problem,” stated X in an introspective tone. “Life is nothing but
thought. If I do not think, I will not exist.”
“I don’t quite agree with you,” said Y—and here he paused and searched
his memory. Then, smiling, he continued on. “For instance, I don’t actually
think at all, I let others do the thinking. I have so many people and ideals to
do that for me that, after a time, their thinking becomes my thinking. My
thinking becomes established in their pattern, but of course these patterns do
keep changing from time to time, since I get bored with the same pattern after
six months. Actually, I try not to think at all. Somehow, I don’t like to
think or to go deep, it makes me uncomfortable. Even if I do it unconsciously
sometimes, I quickly erase the after-effects by indulging myself and getting
lost in some entertainment, whether it be my work, a movie, a book, or the
company of friends like you. I also go to the temple and pray every now and
then. I don’t let myself be bothered by thinking at all, and when I am, there
are always innumerable escapes at my disposal.
“I like my mind to be engaged in something external all the time. I
think I have always disliked thinking. As I said, I like to follow what other
people have said, those who are greater than me. I learn by following them and
their great ideas. I follow these ideals and it makes me feel comfortable and
secure, gives me a sense of purpose in life. Without these ideals, these
beliefs, the authority of others over me to guide me, I would not exist,” said
Y, now feeling somewhat self-conscious at having revealed so much, and being a
little surprised at himself for having acknowledged it at all.
Z said, “I don’t even care about existing or not existing. The whole
question neither bothers me nor makes any sense to me. And I never think,” he
added, taking another sip from his drink.
III
Midnight, and they were still talking, more earnestly now, more engaged
in their discussion and themselves. They seemed to be lost to every other thing
around them.
Suddenly there was an explosion. Shock and silence followed for one
long moment. Their senses seemed to have been pierced by some sharp instrument;
they reacted as if they had become
temporarily deaf, then shared the belief that they were hearing a resounding
echo of the noise inside their heads. There was smoke and dust all around.
Gathering their senses, they looked about. Fire and smoke were coming from the
kitchen, the explosion caused by a short circuit in an appliance. Another long
moment passed before they could grasp all this.
Soon the fire began to spread and the fire alarm
went off. The flames quickly crept onto the curtains, other fabric and wooden
material. One third of the three-bedroom apartment was soon covered in dark
gray smoke and fire.
The three friends moved to the hall, which was more spacious than the
other rooms. Fire inched toward the main entrance door, located near the
extreme left-hand corner of the hall. The apartment was on the tenth floor and
had only one exit. Within minutes, almost the entire place was ablaze, except
for the hall and balcony adjoining it, which looked out onto the street below.
X took stock of the situation first and started
thinking:
It’s a bad business, we’re almost trapped and the fire is spreading. I must
quickly think of a solution. “Where’s the fire extinguisher?” he asked Y,
who was mostly looking at X and Z for a way out.
“It’s in the storeroom, on the right side, close to the entrance door,”
replied Y. “But don’t you think it will be hard to reach because of all the
smoke? And even if we get it, would it help us?”
“Let me think, Y! If I just go from the left and try to jump over that
table next to the door, I might easily get inside the storeroom. Even though
the smoke is quite thick there, my estimate is that it won’t have reached the
inside of the storeroom, so it should still be safe from the fire and smoke. I
can then get at the extinguisher and start using it in every corner of the
apartment. This way, I think with some time, we will manage to extinguish the
blaze,” said X, still deeply engaged in thought.
Y seemed quite satisfied with this, since it was a solution. He quickly
agreed to X’s proposal. Z was looking at the balcony and said nothing.
X remained, still lost in the same stream of thought, going around and
around in it. Y had also started thinking in the same direction, following X’s
lead. Z appeared a little troubled and was still looking out at the balcony.
He said nothing.
X seemed to have made up his mind. Carefully and
thoughtfully, he moved towards the storeroom. Fire and smoke covered his
pathway. He took a high stool from nearby, stood up on it and then jumped. Y
waited expectantly.
Ten minutes passed and there was no sign of X. Z was still looking from
the balcony, oblivious of what was taking place in the background.
Y was pacing the floor in a heat of excitement and fear, when he heard
something behind him.
Z was no more to be seen. Had he jumped out in
madness? A chill passed through Y’s blood. For the first time, he was shaken
out of his mind and with full force realized his situation. He rushed toward
the balcony. Z lay on the terrace of the ninth floor apartment, more than
thirty feet below. He seemed to be in great pain, his leg broken. X was still
out of sight. Y called out for him and moved in his direction.
IV
Z looked up. There was another explosion. The entire apartment blazed
with a sudden burst of light and flame. Then there was silence and huge clouds
of dark gray smoke.
The fire brigade appeared and sounds of vehicles and people could be
heard outside the building. It was all over in a few hours. Z had fallen
unconscious. When he came to, he was in an ambulance. His right leg was
fractured and steadied by a splint.
“That was a brave thing you did by jumping from such a great height. We
found the remains of two bodies in the apartment. Were they already trapped in
the fire when you jumped out?” asked the police constable sitting beside him.
“We were together for the most part,” said Z. “It
was only when one of them starting thinking and the other followed him that we
parted. I could neither think nor follow, so I jumped.”
About The Author
Ashutosh Ghildiyal was born in 1984 in Lucknow, India. He is a salaried
professional and a part-time author. He writes short stories, poetry and
essays. His work has been published in both print and online media. He is
currently based in Mumbai.
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